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I nodded, "Now I have two ideas." I said softly and I watched the TV again

I kissed hs cheek gian and watched the Tv screen

I saw the part where she was torturing me with the vibrators and I shuddered. "That was pure hell." I told her

I smiled upat him, "Good, it was suppowsed to be. but, you got me back for sure. Even when we went t osee my family." i teaed but coudln't help that little black thought i my head, if we woudn't have went out there, i wound'th abethe cut..

"Yeah bur then I put Tou in the hospital." I whispered. "I can't believe I lost my control like that."

"Brian," i turned to him and paused hte tape, "Forgive yourself, my conrol was so far ghone it wans't even funny. ITs okay, I'm okay and here, you dont' forgiveyourself you won't get anywhere,"

I sighed and stroked her cheek, "But what if I didn't stop?" I aske dher

"Oh, trust me, I am not nice when i'm in pain and you wouldn't be such a man and i woudn't be here. i may be in the hospitcal or dead i guess..."

I sighed and covered ny face with my hands. "I feel so guilty."

i sighed and shifted so i was up on his stomach, and pulled his hands dwon, "What are you most guily about?

I didn't look at her as I whispered, "That I didn't even want to stop when you told me I was hurting you." I felt so ashamed

Imade hm look at me, "Now, tell that to me looking into my eyes,"

As I looked at her a tear rolled down my face and I whispered, "I didn't want to stop." And then I looked away again.

I made him look at me again, "I know, just listen, okay?"

I stared at her and said, "I'll listen." softly

"Okay. Now, that little thing that gives you all that pleasure was over worked. it will cloud your mind in many ways. Many times, screaming out gets the attention becase it has a tone that is needed to break the haze. i didn 't do that first, and it wasn't until i used that tone it got though to you. I knew where you are, and i get why. Dn't be ashamed of yourself anylonger, becase the longer you are the more i fee lbad for not actually pushing you off./"

I sighed and looked down, "I listened." I whispered.

I made him look at me again, "Think about this, if it was you, how do you think i would feel? I would feel utterly like dying. i woun't even want to confront you after it becase i hurt the one i love.. YOur past that, your better than i would be," i said softly, "your here helping me heal,"

I met her eyes, "Nyxis marry me." I blurted.

I lookedat him, my heart beating wildly, "Yes,"

I oulled her to me and hugged her tightly, "I love you so much."

I hugged him tightly back, now laying ont o pf ohim, "I lvoe you too,"i siadn ad held him tightly

I kissed her lips soflty, "I'm sorry." I whispered again and held her close

"Its okay, baby," i said kisinghim backsfotl

I gently lifted her off my lap and laid her beside me. I stroked her cheek and said, "You are just too amazing... I can't ever lose you." I told her.