But....Your my roommate....

I hugged my self as I watched her go, and walked up and knowing i would scare her hugged her tightly one last time, "No, forgive me for everything," i said and kissed her forehead before letting her continue on. WHy did i have to make such stupid mistakes?!

I was sobbing and stumbling back to the car. Throwing up a few times as I walked back. I think I was going to drive myself to the hospital, I thought I was about to have a heart attack

I watched her until i couldn't see her and just sunk to the ground. i sat there, and sighed, i laid bak and din't move

I puked again once I got to the car and even then I just sat in it and sobbed

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I laid there still and cold, my heart was still beating and my self stil lbreathing but i just couldn't move...i just....was broekn

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I somehow managed to drive myself to the hospital, but as soon as I walked inside, I collapsed onto the floor and blacked out

I was picked up that night by park patrole and taken to the ER, i saw Jack and Damien all piled aorund her looking over and with her but when they say me they turned their back as i was carried past

I sighed sadly and just stared at my forming baby bump. I placed my hands over it and I said, "Things wi be easier now." I whispered to the baby.

D: "Jackie...what did happen?"
J: "It doesn't matter what happened, she is safe now, and Des is fine and better off,"
D: "Jack! Don't say that...she was just carreiid in by park rangers..."
J: "I don't care, she left a pregnate girl alone, that could have hurt her and the baby,"
D: I look crossed my face and i sighed, "What got into you?" i whispered
J: "hat happened is that someone broke Jackies heart and she needs someone she knows won't leave and isn't so fucked up in the head."
D: "Jack!"

I sat there on the bed and watched them argue. I had nothing really to say... In all honesty I was on Jack's side, but I was afraid if I opened my mouth things would get really bad

J: "Don't Jack me,"
D: "You know she's had a hard time, we are her friends, we can't jsut leave her alone,"
J: "I can until Jckie is better."
D: "Jack! You've stood bye her for as long as i can remember,"
J: "And maybe its time we get over it,"
D: I looked ath im and sighed, i ksised Jakies forhead, "Sorry...but i have to leave." i said and left the room

I nodded and watched Damien go. I flinched when he slammed the door closed. I swallowed hard and stared at the foot of the bed. I didn't know what to say I just didn't. Jack was defending me, but I couldn't believe he didn't even give Des a second thought.

I sighed, and looked at her and took a seat beside her on the bed, "Sorry, Jackie," i said softly taking her hand

I looked up at him and whispered, "Why are you sorry?" While hokding his hand and kissing the top of it.

"I do'nt usually argue like that,' i said, "I just don't know how she cuold hurt you, though I don't know what even went on"

I fidgeted a bit in the bed and I squeezed his hand. "Well... She... Told me she... That it was possible that she was with child. The guy she cheated on me with's child." I said and I shook my head. "I told her I could raise someone's child that came out of an adulterous relationship. And we broke up.... Again." I whispered. My heart hurt just to retell the story

I hugged her, "But, then again she doesn't know and it was rape, she..did she take you out to a park ino the middle of the forest but you stopped her before she really took you anywhere?"

I shook my head, "No... I didn't stop her..." I said softly and I swallowed hard. I thought I may be sick again

"She stopped in a clearing didn't she? i asked as i sat there, i grabbedthe bucket, she looked like she was goign to hurl

I nodded, "Why?" I asked as I gripped the bucket he handed me

I msiled a bit, "She did....baby girl she has never taken anyone out there, its her safe haven,"

I felt awful. I knew she had had a place like that. She shared it with me and I broke up with her for it. I threw up.

I held her hair back and rubbed her back with the other hand, ""Its oaky, hoeny, just realx,"
D: I ran in, tears on my face, "Destiny is in a coma,"

I could feel my heart breaking into smaller pieces. I threw up once more before I curled up into the fetal position and sobbed