I never want to fall in love ((zzmirazz and me ))

I rested my head on his chest.

(( o.O You must be utterly tired !! . Night ))

we fell asleep and in the morning when i woke up i saw her in my arms i jumped "what happened?"

I woke up confused . "What do you mean ? I have no idea ! I guess we just slept in the same bed ! It´s not like we are naked or something."

i looked at myself than back to her "no more drinking parties" i sat on the bed i had a bad feeling

"I can´t understand why you are making a big deal about this. We have slept in the same bed many times , we are cousins, nothing wrong about it. And you can´t stop us from having drinking parties.We love them and it´s something we share together, just the two of us. We´ve done it for a long time and nothing bad has happened "

i looked at her frowning " you're right we love them and its a way to cheer us up but why can't we remember what happened this time?we always do!and what if we did something?"

I looked at him expresionless and thinking . "You´ve got a point, but if we had done something we would be naked now , don´t you think ?"

"i came early!!what if.." i trailed i shook my head " forget about it i'm sure nothing happened"

"What if we what ...? Finish what you were about to say " I said.

"why do i remember that you told me you were a virgin?and we dirty danced?and skinny dipped ?"

I held his gaze as I tried to remember "Do you think if I told you I was a virgin ... it means we ...?" I trailed off.

i looked at her seriously " do you?"

"I don´t know" I whispered and then looked at the sheets . "Oops . Weren´t my sheets white? They are green now. Did I change them?"

i hid my face with my hands "we did it!" i said angrily "and i don't even have condoms on me!"

"We don´t have to think that" I said trying to deny it "Maybe we ...ate something on the bed or we spilled beer on it and we had to clean it. The sheets must be down in the laundry room "

"go check" i said knowing she wouldn't find them there

"Okay" I nodded and walked downstairs to check .That´s when I noticed I felt sore where I shouldn´t be feeling like that. So I knew right then the sheets wouldn´t be in the laundry room . I sat on the staircase and brought my knees up to my chest . Jason probably would never talk to me again.

"what took her so long!" i i went down after her and found her on the steps "what is it?are you okay?"

"Yeah, I´m fine. It´s just that I didn´t have to go check in the laundry room cause...I feel sore you know where" I whispered looking at my hands, not wanting to see his reaction to that.

i sat next to her and sighed "if you're late i need you to get a test.if you are pregnant you will abort i'll pay the expanses and there's no need to tell anyone.i'm sorry i took your virginity away"

I widened my eyes at him "Are you crazy ??!! I won´t abort if I´m pregnant. I would never do that ! And you don´t have to apologize for taking my virginity away. Two people are needed for that" I snapped angrily.

"you are 16!do you want a baby that early??do you think its easy?and if it happens what are you gonna say? my cousin is the father?"i was yelling

"I´m 17, not 16 !Even if I´m really young , I wouldn´t kill a baby just because he or she was an accident or a mistake ! And I would never tell anyone who the father is , if that´s what worries you !" I ran upstairs , cause I didn´t want to cry in front of him.

i sighed kicking the wall next to me i went after her "you're not pregnant for sure we don't know that but if you are i won't allow you to keep it!" i saw her crying and felt a ping in my heart i went to her and hugged her " i'm sorry i...i'm sorry"

"If I´m pregnant , I´ll keep it . It´s my body , not yours" I cried as I hugged him back . "And don´t say you´re sorry cause you don´t really mean it"