"Oh you've got to be kidding me..." ((Closed))

I screamed against his lips at the pleasure that was just so beyond intense that my body kept trying to get lost inside it, but I feared if I was to lose control, so would he. But then it occurred to me that I was already dead. He couldn't kill me here. I gasped and broke the kiss, "Atreous..." I panted. "Be yourself with me." I said and met his eyes smiling.

* heard her and my fangs came out, and I kissed her my pace picking up so much more then it ever had before. I lost my gontol and bit inot her neck, taking blood as imobed but not loosing myself that i turned into the dead one i did stop after we were compleatly exahusted

I laid beside him completely exhausted. "Atreous... Your abilities... Ohmygod..." I panted out laughing breathlessly. "You're... Just unbelievable." I whispered.

I smeild nad panted, holding her close to me and we were suddenly in a dark room in a huge soft bed under velvet blankets, "Your so amazing baby,"

I smiled and and nestled to his chest. "Oh god baby... I never wanted thatto end. You were finally yourself with me." I said and held him closely. "You have nonidea how happy that made me."

"I do have an idea, baby, you and i are connected. and i am never my self like that becase we have work in the morning and all" i sid, holding her, "Rest, baby,"

((i gotta go sisy i lovooooooooooooooooooooooooooooovvvvvvvvvveeee you))

((Aaaaawwwww nooooooooooooooo I wuve u!))

I sighed and shook my head, "I can't Atreous." Insaid and sighed one more. "And don't lie to me. I know that you himd back because you coukd kill me if you didn't. Your doctor friend told me that a long time ago. And I accept that. You are who you are and I love every inch of you, body and soul. So don't try and hold it back now. Especially because I cannot die here." I said softly.

I looked at her, and sighed, "I am not lying, the doctor guy isn't as old and experienced as i am, honey, and there are thigns you learn aas you get older. One thing you gain is streanght and he doesn't calculate that right. I don't ever want to hurt you, in any way, so i keep toned back"

I frowned, "That's what I just said. I understand where you're comig from, but my point is today... I saw and felt the real Atreous. You didn't hold back and I finally..." I sighed and just stared atthe cieling.

I shifted up onto my side besdie her and pulled her gently to look at me, "You finially....? What?" i asked, pulling her close and burrying my face at her neck in her hair, taking in her smell. truth was i had held back if i hadn't of....i would have been the one that was killed all over again. I was determined to not go back there

I sighed, "Nothing... Nevermind..." I said softly and just stared up at the cieling, counting the dots on it and trying to relax.

"Honey," i said softly looking over at her, "Honey, what is wrong\?"

I shifted a bit underneath him. "It's just... You think our connection doesn't work both ways. I do know when you are lieing and when you aren't." I said with a sigh. "I just wish you'd tell me truthfully, how you feel."

I sighed and rested my forehead dowon on hers I bit back a lie, and spoke truth, "I still did hold back, because i dind't want to become that red eyed person again. I killed innocent people and children and did what ever i had to do to get what i wanted. I am not like that anylonger, and i don't ever want to go back there. Becae if i didn't hold back i would become the person i was when i first stumbled into your bar and passed out on your floor in the doorway." i said, yes, i still remembered it, "and i do know the connection goes both ways. and i am hapy it does. More then happy, extatic about it."

I stared into his eyes and suddenly I felt hurt. "But... But... Here you really can be who you truly are and... You don't have to restrain yourself with me here." I paused for a moment. "All I want is for you to finally feel like you can be yourself around me, but you never can because I'm a weak human." I whispered I looked away

I moved and cupped her face in my hands, "baby girl, you are not a weak human, you are more then that. your alor more then that and the reason i held back is becase that i didn't want to turn into what you killed...only worse,"

"Atreous, one time isn't gonna make you a monster." I said and stood up so I could walk around to pick up my clothes. "I'm going down to the river." I said softly and I walked outside and closed my eyes for a moment. Wen I ipened them, there was a huge river just for me and I smiled, stepping into it naked

I sighed, and bit my lip and got up and was watching her from the sadows in seconds, when she stepped into the water it went d and the trees darkened, and an image showed up and forced her to watchch, a senario of if i would let go...what would really happen.
I eneded up having her pass and bleed out half way though it. Killing her soul.

I screamed as I saw it all in the water and I put my head in my hands and cried along the water line. He could never truly be himself with me... He'd always be holding back, he;d always... Tears poured down my cheeks and they bounced into the water

I stepped out and was to her in seconds, i took her into my arms, "Honey, honey whats wrong baby girl?" i asked, everything back to normal. I held her, my hands on her

I curled into his arms and cried at the vision and I just shook my head, burrying my face in his chest

I held her righly, walking us back out of the water, my hands on her cheeks, "Honey, please tell me whats wrong," i said hodling her

Through tears I began to tell him what I had seen in the water and how it was making me feel. "And now... y-you can;t ever be yourself and it's killing me inside, because that's what I want, almost more than anything, Atreous."

I hugged her tightly to me, "Baby girl," i felt my heart break, "I"m sorry," I rested my head agisnt her nek, my eyes clsoed to hold back tears I dind't know how to cut that part out of me, "I don't want to take the risk of killing you forever, honey, if i do let go," i said holding her tightly to me, my hest feeling tight as my eyes stayed closed, tears threatening